| People say I'm such a quiet girl, sensitive, caring, and doesn't like to bother people. I love to analyze anything: people, situation, even weather! Watching the sky at night comforts me. Seeing the sparkling stars, shinning moon, I feel like I have a companion up there. Over all, I'm just an ordinary girl who puts interest on art. Like it's written on one of my poem, I enjoy drawing, I love to dance, I like writing poems, and I spend most of my time singing. I love to be surrounded with people I love, loving them, and also be loved by them. I hate to be in the midl' of crowd or hectic situation. I really don't belong there. I like everything simple but chic. I love surprises, especially the good ones! :) |
5.23.2003
footloose Walking down on Cokroaminoto street, Menteng, feels like home. I could spend minutes (even hours) there, just look around and buy some DVDs and CDs on the retailers. This after-lunch break, with a best friend, i did that ritual thing. I bought some old CDs from Milli Vanilli (whoaa!), Tommy Page (du-uh?!), and 98 degrees (yea-yea..). Yesterday i went there also, robbed some CDs (again!) from Phil Collins, Kenny Loggins, and Craig David, and gold collection of Debbie Gibson and Tommy Page (huahahahaa :D)!. Old stuff huh?? I dunno i became so excited finding oldies CDs after i got The Greatest Hits of New Kids on The Block! *LOL!!!* posted by Wulan Hanson 4:17 PM | 5.22.2003
tears at noon Melancholic. That's what a friend said about me. I used to be strong and not-too-sensitive. But a trauma in my past change all of it. I become more defensible, pesimisstic, a negative-thinker. That was what happened on this after-lunch-noon. Someone and me had a fight. A quite big one. Me -the sensitive lady- was so hurt. The fight ended when that someone saw me crying (not a big one, of course! du-uh?!). Just two or three teardrops falling on my cheek. It stoped. And that someone said sorry and tell me everything, yes EVERYTHING. Everything i never knew before. I felt so relieved. Maybe if this didn't happen, i never know what is really happen on our both life. Til now. posted by Wulan Hanson 6:22 PM | love, love, love?? How important is d declaration of love? I feel it's important. How far the relationship would go, depends on it. I just miss the words 'I Love You' from a guy's mouth, and i hope it could change eNGi's nitemare facing me as a lesbian! *wakakakakakakkk..* :D posted by Wulan Hanson 5:36 PM | 5.21.2003
a letter to the sky Dear sky, Bener gak sih inspirasi bikin puisi datang klo kita sedang jatuh cinta? Kok skr gue mulai lagi corat-coret bikin puisi ya? Pdhl keadaan hati gue lagi biasa2 aja. Hmm...lumayan menguntungkan juga sih, soalnya kesian thread puisi di KG jd agak kering sama puisi2 gue semenjak gak ada ide :D. Btw, bulan waktu gue di Bandung kemarin, keren banget lho! So bright and rounded! Gue sampe senyum2 sendiri lihatnya. Mungkin itu yang bikin inspirasi gue naik lagi kali ya? ;) Well, only God knows.. posted by Wulan Hanson 6:06 PM | a quote from song lyrics.. I'm tired of being alone So hurry up and get here So tired of being alone So hurry up and get here Searching all my days just to find you I'm not sure who I'm looking for I'll know it When I see you Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom Staying up all night just to write A love song for no one.. Love Song For No One - John Mayer posted by Wulan Hanson 5:50 PM | Not Myself (John Mayer) Suppose I said I am on my best behavior And there are times I lose my worried mind Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else? Suppose I said Colors change for no good reason And words will go From poetry to prose Would you want me when I'm not myself? Wait it out while I am someone else? And I, in time, will come around I always do for you Suppose I said You're my saving grace? Lagi seneng banget sama lagu ini... posted by Wulan Hanson 5:48 PM | Kecupanku barusan, Tuan Menandakan gemerlapnya jiwa Yang kau semikan dengan pelangi Hingga butir warnanya merekah dan mampu kupetik Dan kupersembahkan padamu Ksatria penawar lelah jiwaku. Akankah kau tetap disini Bersamaku, selamanya? 21 Mei 03 17:33 posted by Wulan Hanson 5:38 PM | bad net! bad!! Whut the hell is happening on the net?!? So goddamn slooooowwww..... *@%#$!&%$*#x&/? posted by Wulan Hanson 2:59 PM | Ketika malam itu kau bawa aku Melintasi berjuta nirwana dengan pelangi di lembahnya Seakan aku bermimpi Entah dimana aku berpijak Detak jantungku sendiri tak mampu kuraba Ribuan kali pacunya Hingga rona wajahku memerah Saat hangat yang kau ciptakan Merasuki sukmaku terdalam. Bilakah kau singgah lagi, Tuan? 21 Mei 03 14:47 posted by Wulan Hanson 2:49 PM | sebait pagi hari Kesedihan ini menghantuiku Menyeretku hingga tenggelam dan berkubang Dalam lautan air mataku sendiri Ah, Aku mulai letih. Saatnya untuk bangkit! Aku terlalu berharga untuk tak berjiwa Ragaku rindukan belainya Benarkah? Bukankah aku dulu mampu segalanya Sebelum ia datang dan lumatkan impian Mungkin ini memang saatnya Dan kan ku enyahkan dia dari hidupku! 21 Mei 03 09:57 posted by Wulan Hanson 9:57 AM | you go girl!!! Seeing a friend on MTV VJ Hunt 2003, i felt really happy. She's one of my office-mate and i was one of the earliest person told when she became one of the finalist. She was so georgous, cool and really smart there. Today's schedule will be the moment of 'penjurian' and I hope she could win! :D posted by Wulan Hanson 9:38 AM | 5.20.2003
love song for no one Me and a friend was talking bout d meaning of sumthin' called 'love' in our life (what kind of creature is this anyway?? err...if i'm not mistaken, it's already extinct isn't it?). I told her that i've been so goddamn traumatic with love and guys, they're killing me. I told her too, for me it's kinda hard to fall in love again, to be really in love again. I need a man who can really love me and take me out from this kinda curse. I think this angel need his knight right now... posted by Wulan Hanson 6:22 PM | not myself i was feeling kinda mell-O-la lune this morn till noon. Brasa sendirian, bener2 bete. Udah gitu sempet salah paham sama seseorang yg bikin dia marah. Padahal bener2 gak bermaksud gitu. Duh, emang susah ya klo temen lagi sensi. Gue yang lagi bener2 bete jadi tambah bete. Tapi sutralah, everything's over now. Mungkin libur 3 hari kmaren itu bener2 kurang ya? posted by Wulan Hanson 6:08 PM | Telah Ternamai # 1 Untuk Dyah Tri Wulandari Dentingnya, sayang, dentingnya. Yang merasuki. Mendekam. Antara ruang-ruang otakku. Hantui. Resapi. Tiap rajut nada yang merana Rapih, sampai rapat berbaris Indah. Pukau hati. Walaupun aku getarkan nafasku Untuk sekedar menghela Luapan impedans dalam dada Antarkan pucuk bercinta ulam Namun takkan kembali. Duhai, penawan hatiku yang kekal Apakah ada penawar bagiku ? Ratuku, pelipur jiwa keringku Indahmu…tiada terkata. November 21, 2001 posted by Wulan Hanson 1:25 PM | Cinta Tiada Bertepi Sulit bagiku untuk mengucapkan cinta Tapi aku mencintaimu seperti embun Yang menggelincir di lereng hati Menetesi rimbun cemara kehidupan Aku mencintaimu Dengan kesepakatan antara iblis dan malaikat Yang berseteru bersenjatakan dendam dan air mata Mempertentangkan hidup dan matiku Aku mencintaimu Layaknya serakan sampah jalanan kota Yang merindukan api pembakaran Untuk lumat lalu memberi makan benih baru Aku mencintaimu Dengan kecemasan gurun Sinai Mata air yang parau menyanyikan lagu kehidupan Dan kembaraan masih jauh Aku mencintaimu Layaknya surga merindu orang sholeh Merayakan kematiannya menuntun dengan mesranya Hidup jadi tiada berarti lagi Aku mencintaimu Dengan separuh senja yang berlalu Mengisinya dengan janji matahari "Harapku temui kau esok pagi". posted by Wulan Hanson 12:58 PM | a noon note Sungguh menyakitkan....... mencintai seseorang yang tidak mencintaimu, tetapi yang lebih menyakitkan adalah mencintai seseorang dan tidak pernah memiliki keberanian untuk mengutarakan cintamu kepadanya... Cinta yang sebenarnya adalah ketika kamu menitikkan air mata dan masih peduli terhadapnya, adalah ketika dia tidak mempedulikanmu dan kamu masih menunggunya dengan setia. Namun bila pun kau benar2 mencintai seseorang, jangan lepaskan dia, bila dia tak membalasmu, barangkali dia tengah ragu dan mencari, jangan percaya bahwa melepaskan berarti kamu benar2 mencintai tanpa suatu balasan, mengapa tak berjuang demi cintamu? mungkin itulah cinta sejatimu. Kadang kala, orang yang paling mencintaimu adalah orang yang tak pernah menyatakan cinta padamu, karena kau takut berpaling dan memberi jarak, dan bila ia suatu saat pergi, kau akan menyadari ia adalah cinta yang tidak kamu sadari. Maka mengapa kau tak mengungkapkan cintamu, bila kau memang mencintainya, meskipun kau tak tahu apakah cinta itu ada juga padanya? (an email from a friend) posted by Wulan Hanson 12:42 PM | Andai bahagia dapat kuraih Takkan sendiri ku menanti Walau berjuta warna kupetik disini Galau jiwaku tetap hampa tak berkasih 14 Mei 2003 15:35 posted by Wulan Hanson 12:01 PM | betrayal (again, the sequel) For the first time i write here, i cried. Someone stabbed my back. Again. I feel horrible. She's a very good friend of mine. I shared so many times and so many things with her, but why could she do that? Gosh...why do i have to feel this kind of curse again? Thank you God, but i think i had enough. posted by Wulan Hanson 10:57 AM | 5.19.2003
let the holiday heal your soul.. Yesterday weekend i was having so much fun! Hanging out with a bunch of best friends, spending time together, i was completely fresh up! The places were great, the shopping was quite fascinating, and... and... and... overall, IT WAS GREAT!!! ::up:: Too bad it's only for 3 days. Missing all of it already.. :( posted by Wulan Hanson 11:50 AM | My Immortal I'm so tired of being here Suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave 'Cause your presence still lingers here And it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears I held your hand through all of these years But you still have All of me You used to captivate me By your resonating life Now I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts My once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away All the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal This pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me.. I've been alone all along posted by Wulan Hanson 11:35 AM | |